Jacklyn's Monologue from that same year that i think is sooo cool

Untitled Monologue by Swati Pandey, at the ELAC Writers Workshop

"Love Is a Place," the monologue that won me the first Chartuckian Forensics Medal way back when

"Love Is a Place," a monologue by Robin Glasser, at ELAC

Life

we never realize what is so precious about every little detail of our life until we are blinded and we have lived our lives without these small details. For me, i have just been awoken, and i have been shown that not all is a loss-for not everything in my life is imaginary. Or maybe it is because i chose to believe in the world that i created for myself that it became reality. But all is not yet lost- for what I had begun to believe was false, has since came to me and introduced itself just as i always thought it would.

STUPID PEOPLE

I HATE YOU YOU ARE EVIL
PEOPLE ALWAYS THINK THAT THEY MUST ASSUME
WHY IS THIS? WHY YOU ASK? BECAUSE THEY ARE STUPID.

YES, PEOPLE ARE STUPID.
THEN THEY ARE SHOCKED AND GLAD THAT I DONT ASSUME THINGS LIKE THEY DO.
BUT THEY DONT TRY IT OUT THEMSELVES.
BECAUSE THEY ARE STUPID.

AND THEN THEY THINK THAT IT'S OK TO ASSUME, AND BE PREJUDICE.
THAT IT'S OK TO SEGREGATE PEOPLE INTO CLASSES.
AS MY WONDERFUL FRIEND AMANDA VAN SINGEL SAID ONCE
"EVERYONE SEES IN BLACK AND WHITE, WHILE ALL I SEE IS GREY."
THIS IS SO TRUE.
IN A ONE SECOND GLANCE AT SOMEONE,
YOU MAY SEE AN ASIAN MAN WITH GREY HAIR AND GLASSES.
I SAW THE SAME PERSON, ONLY I SAW AN OLDER MAN WHO HAD A SWEATER ON AND BOOKS UNDER HIS ARM.
PEOPLE ARE STUPID.

MSNBC - Newspaper from Bush's hometown endorses Kerry

MSNBC - Newspaper from Bush's hometown endorses Kerry

Now imagine, if fifteen years from now Charlotte endorses my brothers' opposition when HE runs for president!!

I BLEED

For though, once, I saw my blood and thought of all the pain. I only saw what was, nothing more. After you, I see my blood and I see you. I only bleed for you. You are my pain that causes my blood to come to the surface. Some experts say the pain goes away eventually, and the bleeding stops. But I know my blood will not stop. This pain--you-- will drain my blood. For you I bleed.

Ginger

AUDIO CLASS

yay today we had a test and because the monday class is a day behind us, we have to do nothing until they catch up with us. today we got in there, studied for a half hour and took the test. he said we could leave after we took the test, so here i am i got out at 1:40 or so--it only took about ten minutes or maybe fifteen--not twenty! wow... yeah it was great so now here we are in the computer lab and we're thinking about going to the bank and maybe we'll go home. what we really need to do is find someone to murder. yes precious, we need to murder GVVIB yes precious... hmm...so i may be getting a personalized plate for my car that i NOW HAVE THE TITLE FOR!! yay!! obviously, ginger is taken. i went to www.michigan.gov and looked around there until i found thier wonderful system tool that tells you immediately if that plate is taken or not. so i was there for a while, i'm thinking about GINGERM, meant to read Ginger M. and NOT gin germ like i realized it kinda looks... but if anyone has any idea for a plate for me just post a comment, i'm up for anything that will tell them "it's Ginger Marrie in that car" or "hey that must be ginger!!" if you didnt already know, i love my name! ging is taken too. SORRY MIRANDA, BUT SO IS "GGRR" :(

Ginger Marrie

help me i'm dying

just like ma always said... right now i feel like crawling in a hole and dying... i hate people. all people. unless they are me. miranda falls in that catagory--but nobody else. i dont like you...

AHHHHH

I DONT LIKE PEOPLE THEY ARE EVIL
I DONT LIKE CERTAIN PEOPLE THEY FRIGHTEN ME
I DONT LIKE YOU YOU ARE MEAN
I DONT LIKE THEM
I DONT LIKE PEOPLE WHO FRIGHTEN ME
I DONT LIKE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME CRAZY
YOU MAKE ME CRAZY
I DONT LIKE YOU
YOU ARE EVIL
PEOPLE ARE EVIL
I DONT LIKE YOU

AHHHHHHHHHH

This Post's for You, Jessica!!

once again, i've called ma soeur in "Ioway" as they call it and yeah well WE ALL MISS YOU JESSICA!! YOU NEED TO COME BACK "DOWN" HERE AS YOU WOULD SAY, PICTURES ARENT EVERYTHING!! WE LOVE YOU AND WE NEVER FORGET YOU!

maybe some day the trio will be back together again, but right now we're having Miranda issues... and i mean both jessica and i are having them.

well anyways i need to get going on class, post later cuz today is supposed to be a VERRRRY LONG day. i'm going to Charlotte.

tchao for now

Ging

Define Ginger...

Main Entry: 1gin·ger Pronunciation: 'jin-j&rFunction: nounEtymology: Middle English, from Old English gingifer, from Medieval Latin gingiber, alteration of Latin zingiber, from Greek zingiberi, ultimately from Pali singivEra1 a (1) : a thickened pungent aromatic rhizome that is used as a spice and sometimes medicinally (2) : the spice usually prepared by drying and grinding ginger b : any of a genus (Zingiber of the family Zingiberaceae, the ginger family) of herbs with pungent aromatic rhizomes; especially : a widely cultivated tropical herb (Z. officinale) that supplies most commercial ginger2 : PEP 3 : a strong brown- gin·gery /'jinj-rE, 'jin-j&-/ adjective

Main Entry: 2gingerFunction: transitive verbInflected Form(s): gin·gered; gin·ger·ing /'jinj-ri[ng], 'jin-j&-/: to make lively : pep up

Main Entry: ginger groupFunction: nounchiefly British : a group that serves as an energizing force within a larger body (as a political party)

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gin·ger Listen: [ jnjr ]n.
A plant (Zingiber officinale) of tropical southeast Asia having yellowish-green flowers and a pungent aromatic rhizome.
The rhizome of this plant, often dried and powdered and used as a spice. Also called gingerroot.
a. Any of several related plants having variously colored, often fragrant flowers. b. Wild ginger.
A strong brown.
Informal Spirit and liveliness; vigor. tr.v. gin·gered, gin·ger·ing, gin·gers
To spice with ginger.
Informal To make lively: A steel drum band gingered up the party.

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So basically, I am supposed to have orange-brown hair, have a pungent aromatic smell, am capable of healing people, be spunky, lively, spicy, and i am the energizing inner force behind things...

aint i wonderful?

Ugh...must...sleep...

Currently i am on break from my Television Production class. We have a twenty five minute break. I am so freaking tired. And hungry. Sooooo hungry. I am really hyper but still tired, which i never thought was possible. Well anyways, those of you who actually read this crap, have a nice weekend and maybe sometime you could post a comment--that's what they're there for :D ...

c'est tout pour maintenant, au revoir mes amis!

Ging

My Audio Project 1

on Tuesday, i scheduled for Wednesday at 4:30 to come in to the beginner's lab and edit my project. i wasnt on the system becuase i'd never checked anything out before there. So they told me i could have the 4:30 spot and they wrote it down for some guy to put me in there later. so i went in there ten minutes before, and they said it was taken because the guy never put me on the system. so they put me on the system right then and put me in for the next one-- at 7 Wednesday. so i went home, ate, then went back and did it. lemme tell ya, being in that room with no clock, no windows other than the door...i may have only been in there for two hours as scheduled...but IT FELT LIKE FIVE!! i was so tired when i got out of there, it was so boring!! next time i think i'll bring a cd to play while i am cutting and splicing, because i was going insane in there with no sound so i played the three songs on that project cd that they altogether added up to probably almost three minutes. i played them over and over until i wanted to be on top of a mountain singing with my arms wide open "THE HILLS ARE ALIVE WITH THE SOUND OF MUSIC..."

c'est tout pour maintenant, au revoir mes amis!

Ginger Marrie

What are we without drama in life??

Ok, for all of you that know about the soap opera Passions on NBC, i dont have to explain much. But this sucks because the rest of you dont know what the hell i'm talking about. OK... i have been known to compare sticky situations in my life to the wonderful soaps of Days and Passions. Well, now i am going to tell you that you can compare what is going on in my life right now compares to the triangle of Miguel, Charity and Kay. Now i wont say any names, but i do play out as Charity. by the way, whatever happened to them on the show??

Well anyways, that's how my life is right now, and if you dont get it go to www.nbc.com and find the Passions section and well yeah if you're really concerned about finding out what the hell i'm talking about you're curiosity will drive you there to find it.

P.S. [Kay] is so friggin dumb if she thinks she can do this!! What a moron!!

...At the Bus Stop...

...at about 10:00 in the morning, where it was sunny yet still cold from the night before, i sat at the bus stop awaiting my bus. I look about me as i am attempting to read my class book, and i see all sorts of people. Something stood out to me. A man on crutches. He had a sock on his foot, and a sandal on the other. He had khacki's on. He had a backpack on as well. I made it to his face. He had blonde hair...obviously fake. He turned to look around, and he looked so familiar. Instantly i knew it had to be Brian Myers. I smirked, when i thought it could be. That preppy ass who was always so evil... and he saw me. There we were, stairing at eachother like we were old friends but had nothing to say to eachother. I got on my bus. He was still standing there stairing at me, obviously still trying to figure out who i was. He watched me as i was on the bus, unsure to my identity. I laughed over it...but it wasnt so funny as yesterday and Shelby Moore...hah, that still is funny...

EVERYONE LAUGH AT SHELBY!!

hey everyone, remember Shelby Moore, one of the heads of the many prep circles??

well today i was walking along and i saw a flashy car parked in front of me... and it was his car!!! how could i mistake it--i have wanted it for over a year!! well i saw that and thought "hahahahahaha!!! look at him!! he is a spoiled rich kid whose car is the whip and yet he spent so much money on it that his parents put a limit on his funding and told him to go to a cheap college!!!" oh wow... i got a good laugh out of that. He's a rich kid who spent all his msu college money on his car so he cant afford--even though he's a spoiled rich kid--to go to a big college!! he has to go to lcc...ok i'll get off that now, but i really did laugh hard about that.

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My quiz

In tv class today we had a quiz. I was sure it would be on chapters 8,9 and 11 but it turned out it was only on 8. and it was easier than i thought. he told us things to review then only a quarter of what we reviewed was the test. that bugged me. but oh well, i think i did pretty good. I am beginning to get that thing back where my eyes shake in my head again. Jordan tells me it is from my astigmatism because when he had one that's what the doc said (who by the way has the same eye doc as me) so i guess after a while maybe it'll quit happening. Another thing--this contact is like so weird because--well ok my eyes are always more open than most, as you all know. so when i first got contacts i had to realize what it felt like for a contact to want to pop out of my eye, so i could save it because otherwise it was coming out. and my eyes are always wide open so unless they are perfectly moisturized...they want to come out. well anyways this new contact that is real thick-- it's wanted to pop out every day that i've worn it so far, yet is is so hard to take out when it comes time to do so...this thick contact really sucks... but it's kinda cool cuz i can turn it and be blind!! i guess i need to close my eyes...OK i'll shut up about the contacts!!

so yeah Neil needs to do something about his headaches, if you dont believe he's been having them always just check out his blog and refer to like october or january or so and may i think and then you'll see how long he's had to put up with this... http://neil.cbulock.com

My results from taking a color quiz...

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.

Your Existing Situation:
Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily aroused by the unusual or the adventurous.

Your Stress Sources:
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

Your Restrained Characteristics:
Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.

Your Desired Objective:
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.

Your Actual Problem:
Takes a delight in action and wants to be respected and esteemed for her personal accomplishments.

MSNBC - Martha Stewart begins her makeover

MSNBC - Martha Stewart begins her makeover

...turns out i'm not a taurus after all...

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Sleep...

...must...have...sleep...sleep good...i am so tired! i only got two hours of sleep i think. i still dont get it my alarm went off at 615 instead of 545...but i went out on the couch and fell back asleep--unintentionally--and woke up at 715. oh no! i usually leave at 710!!

but it's a good thing i like to be early, because i got on the bus at about 740 and walked into my class at 805--time to start!! so yeah now i know if the bus isnt slowgoing, i'll still make it at 740--but i'll still get on the 710 bus!!

yeah Neil and i were bored last night and couldnt focus, so we went to the msu library. took a while to find two adjacent computers, but we did. and we accomplished barely anything that we intended on. well ok neil did. i had no plans. He was going to read and he "clickity-click-click"ed and we finally left at 1230. then of all things, i decided i wanted a quote shirt from Vitale Inc. and so now i have one. THE BEST PART IS, IT'S NOT A WHITE SHIRT!! perfect for all us anti-white colour people!! so yeah i went to bed at probably 330. i may be exausted and missed my time to leave...but i got a Vitale Inc. quote shirt because of it!!

Miranda

Miranda...she hates me for things i may have done to her, yet i am not the only one who is the "wrong" one in the picture. if she could recollect the previous schoolyear, and remember how she treated me. i understand, that i cannot compare one specific incidence to last schoolyear, but that is in another boat. i think if we had our time we would get past that problem. but there is never any time, and so everything goes unfinished, and that's when it gets worse. if we could just sit down and talk for a day alone and no interruptions, Miranda... we might be the duo everyone remembers. That is, of course, unless you don't want to be part of that again, you'd rather have Tony and Sarah to fill that void. I'm not attacking Tony- he's filling the boyfriend void. But he's probably doing a little of the friend void- the rest that Sarah is not filling in my place. Now i am pretty sure Sarah hates me and if she doesnt well now she probably does. But Sarah, look through my eyes. In my eyes, you grabbed Miranda by the arm when she was sleeping and had her sleepwalking and when she awoke, she went with it, walking away from me. And because of that, she kept walking and forgot what was behind her, even when it caught up to her and said "remember me?" she could not remember it, for...i dont know why.

My point is, Miranda we need time. ALOT OF IT. This cant go untouched for as long as we have let it. And Sarah, see my side before you determine that you officially hate me.

This Weekend

i had a long weekend, i just realized today is Tuesday. Sunday i hung out avec mon pere and yesterday i went over there again. i am so exausted, i just want to go home and sleep until i cant lie there any more. i could probably sleep for twenty good hours right now.

so the way i am told, grandma and grandpa are coming home tomorrow. i think i'll call them tomorrow, and say hello--last sunday was "grandparent's day". they went to see grandpa's sister and on the way there saw my sister. i'd like to kidnapp her and bring her back up here. well i'd like to do that to Miranda too--she cant seem to understand what i mean anymore. i guess i kinda dont understand myself either, but well i never have. i guess now i have nobody to explain me to me once miranda is gone.

Blackboard

oops...

Yeah so now I FINALLY LOGGED ONTO BLACKBOARD WITH TWO NEW CLASSES ON MY LIST!!!!! OH IT'S SO GREAT!! but really, i guess blackboard isnt so great as i thought it was.

yesterday went to Charlotte and went with Mike and saw the second Resident Evil. it was friggin awesome!! i swore in those fight scenes, i was in the matrix!

and as sad as this may sound, when i was watching it, half my mind was watching the movie as it was, and the rest of it was analyzing it into the rule of thirds, and...yeah i guess school is getting to me! i guess that's what happens when you take classes that teach you how to effectively do things to the audiance. wow, i really want to make a movie!! oh, man... i think i'm going to find out about the editing rooms, see if i cant make something for Jessica... but they're probably closed at the help desk downstairs. i can always check, it's not like i dont have a healthy set of legs!

so i went to Aunt Pam's today, hung out with mes cousines, and did laundry. People want me to go to the Frontier Days tonight to the rodeo but i dont know if mon frere would want me to drive his car more than i have already in the past two days. well, c'est tout pour maintenant! au revoir mes amis!!

~Ging~

note to self: I LOVE ME

IT"S OFFICIAL!!

well ok i am still incapable of logging onto blackboard, but i've been added finally to the class!! now i can do nothing more!! i'm just waiting for them to add me in there so i can get on blackboard...

yeah today i saw this lady on the cata bus who was posessed. it was frightning. i thought she was speaking tounges. but the lady next to me pointed out that she can be psycho sometimes because she "is posessed" as she told me. i kinda believe it, too because the bus driver was tired of hearing her talking to herself in a language nobody knew, so she turned on Christian music and she got worse. it was weird.

c'est tout pour maintenant, au revoir mes amis!

WOW...

Yeah... yesterday was...something. i am still in shock from what i found out exactly twenty three hours ago... cant really talk about it but it was a big surprise to me. Miranda, i just emailed you about it. That'll really make me mad if you knew all this time and never had the urge to tell me.

MOVING ON FROM THAT... yeah...

yesterday other than the ongoing drama, i had my tv class yesterday. it's odd, you can tell what i am into by observing me in these two classes: audio and tv. both four hours long. In audio i'm falling asleep, in tv i'm hyper. audio is so boring!!!

Yesterday and Today

yesterday Neil came home with greasy hands and torn pants. It turns out that he was trying to pass someone on his bicycle and hit the curb wrong, causing him to fall. The chain came off, and that's what tore his pants. He was very upset about his pants.

Miranda and i talked alot yesterday and today. She plans to call me later today and tell me--maybe--her reaction to everything i have said. i asked her today to say something but she couldnt come up with her response. I dont know, maybe she's afraid to say it. And therefore, I am a little depressed.

On a lighter note, i saw an old friend that i havent seen in a long time today. she used to be half my size, four years younger than me--now she's taller than me!! even taller than Miranda...

I still want to see Zane. Why cant I manage to find him when i want to see him?

I kinda wonder about Marta. I want to talk to her again--badly. She's supposed to write to me soon, and...i just miss you Marta.

c'est tout pour maintenant! au revoir mes amis

~Ging~

Yesterday and Today

yesterday neil came home with torn pants and greasy hands. he had tried to go around someone on his bicycle and hit the curb wrong and fell. his chain came off. so he was really upset that his pants were torn.

so today i am going to go to Charlotte again, only this time i'm not going to take the detour that goes to "Brighton"... no i plan to go right there!!

c'est tout pour maintenant! au revoir mes amis!

Ginger Marrie

Yesterday and Today

yesterday after i got home, Neil came rushing in at like 6:15 with grease all over his hands. He proceeded to complain about how he hates his bike. it turns out he was trying to go around these people in front of him and instead of getting back on the sidewalk and going right over the curb, he hits the curb on the side and crashes. he tore his pants and that made him very mad. his chain came off too.

so yeah then mon pere came over and told me about a car i could have. so i dont really know right now what's going on. the world is still spinning yet i think somewhere in there i couldnt keep up with the world and it lost me.

today i plan to go to Charlotte again and THIS TIME I'M NOT GOING TO DETROIT!!

it has been an exact week since i attempted to go to Charlotte and ended up in "Brighton". UGH!! i know now, though, that when LEAVING LANSING DO NOT TAKE THE DETROIT ROAD!! THAT ONLY APPLIES WHEN GOING TO LANSING...i am a moron...

today was very dull

today was indeed quite dull. really, nothing big happened. i wanted to go scream at miranda earlier. but i couldnt because we were talking online and if i'dve screamed out loud i'dve upset the people around me... and i'm in a full computer lab...

yeah well miranda and i are talking right now and out of all the problems we have she can only think of two things to ask me over and over. now there wont be another time for like two months where there is ginger/miranda time, again. because either she's with her tony or with her precious sarah who hates me. so basically "ginger/miranda time" is a thing of the past.

i'd like to just kidnapp her for three days to settle all this. though knowing us it'd probably only take us two hours alone!! ugh...miranda. you're starting to be almost as annoying as Terry.

Wow this weekend

drama always seems to strike you when you want it... the only problem is it either hits you hard or it has bad timing. in refrence to last weekend it was a hard hit. but right now, it has found really bad timing...

cant really talk about it. but i saw someone in a new light this weekend. and they did with me as well.

as for miranda, well... she seems to not care about me anymore.

c'est tout pour maintenant, au revoir mes amis... gotta go to class.

Four Day Weekend

where we last left our heroes...

well i couldnt turn in my add/drop form yet because it didnt have someone's signature on it that i dont even know who it is that i have to find. so yeah... friday i slept in and was reallllly happy about that. yesterday i did nothing other than clean the house up and make it very tidy looking. but i couldnt do the stupid dishes since i have nothing yet to plug the drain. so yeah then today here Neil and i are in the MSU Library and going to Aunt Pam's later.

c'est tout pour maintenant! au revoir mes amis!

today was...

Ok, so today I went to class and I did all the things I needed to do, except for one. But I got out of class at five, and I can’t call after 4. and that’s call the school. So tomorrow hopefully they are in for office hours, otherwise I will call Tuesday…

so yeah i'm going to go turn in my add/drop forms and go sleep...

WHAT A DAY!!

yesterday...i got up and went to class. normal.

i leave class and catch CATA bus. Go home. normal.

i leave home at 10:40 to go to Chartucky. I end up in "Brighton". NOT normal.

i was almost in the yellow of Detroit. i was balling. finally at 2 i got to Miranda's. spent most of day in car, and Charlotte (except for my half hour in brighton...) (oh and my three hours i think of driving there and back...)

at 9 got home. postcard on door. normal.

read postcard. phone number and "Dad and Shannon" written on it. NOT normal.

knocks on door. normal.

open door. mon pere. NOT NORMAL.

yeah...then call miranda. no answer phone. normal.

call jessica. NOT normal.

talked to her for an hour. normal.

went to bed with Neil talking as i am in the twilight stage of sleep. normal.


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oh and i have a bruise on my eyebrow from when i ran into the glass wall... I WAS CRYING AS I DID IT, DONT LAUGH AT ME!

I'm In Class

currently, as i am sitting here at my computer, i am waiting for the prof to finish showing the other hs to log on. so yeah today i get to go to chartucky!! i am so happy about that. i'm just afraid i will get lost on the freeway since nobody ever let me drive the freeway so i dont know my way. i know the general idea and i have a few maps that might not even work but i'll get where i need to be. maybe i'll do that right now and look at a map...what is wrong with me?!!

WHIPPET

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this is the best looking whippet i had time to look for. i have to get to class right now or i'd say more. but this is the Whippet i want someone to get me someday...not THIS specific whippet...but a white one. and i want it to be a puppy when i get it so i can raise it and be it's only master...

just so you know...